1-20-21
9:02 am Wed
What a strange world. I am getting bored with considering myself. I am starting to be a little more active. It is good. I told Shuna that I am struggling with something that I cannot put my finger on and perhaps because I cannot put my finger on it, it is one of the more challenging times of my life. What I do find interesting, is that the pain and confusion in the world seem to be heightened and I am experiencing it inadvertently. I am surprised how affected I am by the hysteria of current events.
I have been pondering how easily one is influenced. I have also been pondering what is “me”. I have had an ache in my back and it seems to be intensified as I am influenced by the current hysteria. It is strange to listen to the news, to people talking about the current events. There seems to be something telegraphed that is infectious. I have to say I don’t like this phenomenon as a whole, but there is something I do find compelling about it. What I find compelling about it is that I want to resist its influence. I don’t want to submit to this hysteria. Whatever is “me” does not want to be assimilated into this, thusly purpose is borne. I want to appreciate!
I want to encourage appreciation. I want to resist this hysteria. I want others to try to resist this hysteria. What a strange world.