7-9-19
7:28 am Tuesday
Shuna has told me that what I write is the same thing over and over again.
She is right. I am following a certain path and much of it seems to be the same and quite boring.
I believe this has value to explore and put voice to. I believe much of the human experience is this repeating behaviors over and over again through one’s own experience and from one generation to the next. I find this experience quite strange.
I am thrilled to be pursuing the path of ATM even though I am not traversing it very boldly or gallantly. I seem to move along it spasmodically while making little progress.
What I have found of late though is that the pain of my experience has grown to such a pitch, the pain seems to be directing me down the path of ATM with more velocity.
I want to suffer less, so I am trying to assert myself in ways that will elevate the pain.
What this means currently is walking more. It seems to help. Making any change that seems to support our values or gives us hope is a cherished gift. I am a very small person and my capacity to understand and to exert myself seem so limited. I am thrilled though to seem to be able to exert myself a little down this path of ATM and wish to continue to have the opportunity to do so.
Love you Shuna.
I am thankful for this opportunity