I am not sure at this point where my business ends and where I begin

7-11-19

8:10 am Thursday

Another employee has quit at NN.

It is surprising how much effect this has on me.

It is quite normal and to be expected to have turnover in staff.

This staff member had a positive experience with us and we with them.

I wish we could have provided more opportunity for all involved.

That being said, we will focus opportunity on our current staff instead of bringing in more people.

I believe all in all this is not a bad change, it will hopefully provide more opportunity for other staff and that is good.

I will work on helping make this happen today and next week and I will see how it all goes.

With all the above being stated, I restate that it is surprising what effect this stuff has on me.

I went to bed for a few hours yesterday to recover from the stress.

I am not sure why I would need to do it.  My guess is that NN always seems to be on the brink of some disaster. I would say that is the case with any small business.  Perhaps my personality is not well suited for the risk of being in a small business.

Our business is doing the best it has done since we started it 18 years ago, but I seem to have a very difficult time appreciating it.

I am not sure why.  I want to attribute it to the difficulties that we had 9 or 10 years ago.  For the first half of the business we had lots of losses and tons of staff changes.  Perhaps I am suffering PTSD because now the business has been doing well for a long time.

Perhaps I am just a very nervous person. I don’t know anything.

I want to appreciate and I hope I kind of find a path to it.  I am dying.  I seem to be very old.  I don’t want to lose this opportunity to try to appreciate. I am not sure at this point where my business ends and where I begin.  I need to appreciate my business!

Shuna gave me a nice hug, thank you! I love you.

I appreciate this opportunity.